Month: September 2012

  • I dont mean to sound like a whiner but i guess it is whining

    Andrew and i jsut finished doing our budget for October and he didnt remember my birthday, so no money got set aswide for that, i am turning 30 this year, to me this is a big deal, but i guess to him it dont matter

    Feeling so sad right now

  • Child care is taken care off.

    thanks for your well wishes.

     

  • I had an interview Monday at a car dealership as Posting Clerk, I got the job and i begin on Monday, pray that i can find suitable child care for Brooke, thats very nerve racking right now.

  • Weekend Recap

     

    Been another great weekend

    Friday: After i was done baby sitting Ms Olivia, we were gonna go grocery shopping, but had to wait until 7 because a girl i bought shoes from was coming to bring them over.
    So then we went grocery shopping- bad thing to do before u have supper. Brooke was super whiny because she was hungry and wanted everything she saw :s
    we took her to mcdonalds after and got her food and i had a spicy thai salad, im on this spicy kick lately where all i want is spicy food, left there and went to Dollarama to get some junk food that i needed for Sunday’s party( more on that in a bit). Went to bed way to late, was asleep pretty quick, i love falling asleep very quick. Hate nights when i cannot sleep.

    Saturday: We all slept til 11:15, was very nice to sleep in. Yes we sleep in late when we can.
    We then ran to run a few errands that we were to lazy to run on Friday night. 
    I had to go to Dollarama( like dollar tree) to get some prizes for the prize box at Sunday School- they asked me if i would get some because they wanted a fresh pair of eyes to pick out some fun things. I took what prizes that was the box and made them into Surprise Bags, so no one knew what they were going to get and it was a big hit. Those kids are great kids. 
    New friend came by~ Morgan. She is going to babysit if we need her at times. Very sweet girl.
    Brooke had her new friend Destiny over for a sleep over, was fun to hear my baby girl laugh again, she hasnt had a friend over for a sleep over since the first week we lived here, they were well behaved and it was very nice :) They went to sleep shortly after going to bed, had them selves worn out.

    Sunday- I love my church and i love the people that go there. 
    It is so different then the church back home, it has more people and more music, not that those things are important but it sure helps.
    Sunday School was at 10:30- my husband played drums- I love that man on the drums. He is even cuter when he is playing guitar.

    After Sunday School- Levi came over for lunch, he is our Pastor’s kid back home, he is here for Bible School, he is a sweet kid and we all love him

    After we ate, we all crashed til around 3pm, then i cleaned kitchen, and prepared for Sunday Night’s Party
    Party:
    We have about 15-20 bible school students coming to our chruch this year, it is so nice to have them with us, we wanted to show them our appreciation and we had them all over for Nacho Night- we were about 2 hours cutting tomato, green onion, red pepper,green pepper,yellow pepper, cheese, preparing brownies. It was fun, Thanks Levi for your help.

    After church everyone came over, we had so much fun, we laughed a lot, it was just good clean fun.
    They were here until 10pm and then i cleaned the house again ( a womans work is never done)

    Thanks guys for coming over :)

    Check back tomorrow for some exciting news from our family <3

    Wee

  • Sep
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    Self Esteem

    You can’t touch it, but it affects how you feel. You can’t see it, but it might be there when you look at yourself in the mirror. You can’t hear it, but it’s there when you talk about yourself or when you think about yourself.

    ~

    What is this important but mysterious thing? It’s your self-esteem!

    I think 80% of females struggle with self esteem.
    I think its just something Women in general do
    I seriously thought i was the only person at one point that didnt like them selves.
    I dont like my hair
    I dont like my clothes
    I dont like my weight
     
    Yes material things. But thats how women are. we think if i had nicer clothes, if i lost weight, if i did my hair a different way, then i would be happier…..NO you wouldnt.

    Self-esteem isn’t about bragging, it’s about getting to know what you are good at and not so good at. A lot of us think about how much we like other people or things, but don’t really think much about whether we like ourselves. We brag on our husbands, kids, friends, parents etc- but what about yourself- ME

     
    I was talking to my friend Faith who was listening to me rant and rave about self esteem, she gave me a scripture and i am thinking i am printing this and putting up on every mirror in my house.
    He brought me out into a spacious place;
    he rescued me because he delighted in me.
    Psalms 18:19
    Jesus has us the way he wants us to be, not the way we want to be.
    Imagine if he said ok, make your self how you want to look- things would be scary.
    He delights in me- he loves me the way i am, he dont need me to do a certain hair style, or wear a certain color or style, HE DELIGHTS in me

    The Lord does not leave his work half done, for having routed the foe he leads out the captive into liberty. He has us created in a image that he can use, he formed us from the dust of the ground.
    We (I)learn to view the uncaused love of God as the cause of all the lovingkindness of which we are the partakers.
     
    But yes, still I question:
    Why do i not look like my friend Faith? ( who by the way is beautiful inside and outside) or any other friend…
    Why can i not seem like i have my life together, I have a husband and a daughter, I need to keep my self together for them. But yet, God delights in me.
    He didnt create us all the same- that would make a boring world- as the quote says ” takes all kinds of people to make the world go around”
    Next time you pass a mirror, i challenge you to look in there and say i am beautiful, God made me and their is no one like me, I like me :) Do it, i have been trying to do this for a long time but i never do it, almost like i am to shy to tell myself how “made in God’s image i am”-
    We are all beautiful in our own way

  •  

    How can another weekend be over and another starting, time is flying.

    Let’s see- our weekend

     

    Friday night- Andrew and i decided we would go on a date- we were both fighting a head cold, so just a quick supper and run some errands.  Babysitter came over so we decided to go ahead.

    We wanted to try a new restaurant in town, so we went there-its st hubert- similar to Swiss Chalet which happens to be my favorite.

    We left that, went to staples so i could get some printing done. Then while i was there, he went to buy us some fish for our tank, we now have 6 fish and so happy with them. Some people like furry pets, we like ones with fins :p. Then we went to a pharmacy so i could get some medication for my head cold, that seemed to have gotten worst.  we were home before 9 pm and i felt ready for bed. 

     

    Saturday- this day passed in such a blur.

    We had so much to do that didnt get done on friday because i was so sick. One of the people we know from the bible school here, called and wanted to come and vent. So he came over and vented and i cooked brunch, he felt better after he left.

    Then we left to run errands

    Needed to go back to Staples because i needed 1 more copy, they went to “look” at more fish- didnt buy any more.

    Left there went to Long and Mcquade to buy Brooke a Saxophone that she needed for school band- it was a expensive trip.

    We needed to go to Wal mart too but changed our mind because we had an hour until we had to be some where for 5, so we would do that later. Did go to grocery store to get fruit for a fruit salad.

    Ran home to get ready for our first ever Corn Boil

    We were having a Corn Boil welcome back for the bible school students, 10 mins before the party- it thundered and lightening and oh what rain- so we had it inside, corn was still boiled outside, there was so much food there and we had so much fun.

     

    Sunday- Day of church and rest… we thought

     

    We had to go to the Bible School Dorm room to get laundry for a friend of ours who needs his laundry done- on the way home we hear a ticking noise- had to stop and check things out, noise didnt go away- but got increasingly worst, we called a garage and they said to bring car on over for the morning.  so car is at shop, not sure whats going on but Please God, dont let the Motor be gone, we like our car and dont want to have to car shop yet.

     

    Cheers, Have a great week

  • 16 years

     
    You stole my heart from the first words u spoke to me, I’m the luckiest girl in the world and wouldn’t trade u for anything and i hope it stays this way forever
    Today Marks 16 years since we first met at a youth camp.
    we sat across the table from each other- i still remember your first words to me “Pass the pop please” with those words i fell in love- i dont know what was so special about those words but I knew i was going to marry you.

    Sure enough 16 years ago, i got my very first love letter from you-

    I love you more then that day
    i fall more in love each day heart
  • Remembering 9/11

    I can still remember very clearly where i was and what i was doing

    I was wokring at the Police office as detachment assistant ( best job ever) and one of the officers came in and said

    The Twin towers got crashed into

    i said oh no…not really sure what it was..( yes a very sheltered life)

    we ran into the back room, turned on the news and watched it all.

    Very Heartbreaking day

    America is now stronger because of this <3

    **************************************

    on another note

    I need prayer

    since moving here i have had a very bad foot

    its been dry and cracked for 4 weeks

    last night i went to emergency room bc the pain was very bad.

    i had a fever when i got there

    they wanted to admit me

    no beds availble

    come to find out i have a foot infection

    i am on some very strong medication and a needle in the bottom of my foot…

    Hurt like the dickens…(means hurt very badly)

    Pray for me.

    *************

    back home they are dealing with a hurricane, i really hope my friends and family stays safe.

  • Weekend Recap

     

    We had a very laid back weekend-

    Friday Night i got done babysitting at 3 pm- we hung out at home for a bit- then went grocery shopping.  Got a ton of stuff we needed. ate at mcd’s
    we were all in bed by 11 pm- was so tired, then i got a flare up and was up most of the night because of the pain.

    Sat – Brooke and i were up by 7:45, we decided we would go yard sailing with friends from church.  We got so much nice stuff, including a winter jacket for Brooke for $2 with tags still on.
    Sat Pm – we had friends from church come over for dinner- without me knowing the mom was vegetarian- so i had meat a meat lasagna- felt bad that i didnt have anything prepared for her, she ate salad and bread.
    We had a fun time hanging out.

    Sunday- we had church- i love my church. After church we had to college kids from back home come over for lunch, we grilled burgers and had salads, had fun.

    It was a very low key weekend but those are good :)

  • Interstitial cystitis

    Not sure how many of you know that i deal with this disease and the pain that comes with it.

     

    Interstitial cystitis is a long-term (chronic) inflammation of the bladder wall.

    Causes, incidence, and risk factors

    Interstitial cystitis (IC) is a painful condition due to inflammation of the tissues of the bladder wall. The cause is unknown.

    IC is often misdiagnosed as a urinary tract infection. {thats what i thought the first few times i had the pain,it felt like an infection. But all test came back negative}Patients can go years without a correct diagnosis. On average, there is about a 4-year delay between the time the first symptoms occur and the diagnosis is made. {i was only a few months, but 3 different doctors before i got the right one who knew what she was doing}

    I feel confident in saying that my Dr is knowledgeable and is always there to help her patients.  Scary thing is since moving here we dont have a dr yet, i need a doctor and i am hoping my dr can refer someone up here

     

    Symptoms

    Common symptoms of interstitial cystitis include:

    Many people who have long-term interstitial cystitis are also depressed because of the pain and changes to their lifestyle.   

    Signs and tests

    The diagnosis is made by ruling out other causes. Tests include:

    • Bladder biopsy

    • Cystoscopy (telescopic examination of the bladder)

    • Urinalysis

    • Urine culture

    • Urine cytology

    • Video urodynamics (shows how much urine must be in the bladder before you feel the need to urinate)

    Treatment

    There is no cure for IC, and there are no standard treatments that are known to be effective for most patients. Results vary from person to person. Treatment is based on trial and error until you find relief.

    Elmiron is the only medication taken by mouth that is approved for treating IC. This medicine coats the bladder like Pepto-Bismol coats the stomach.

     

    Other therapies that may be tried include:

    • Over-filling the bladder with fluid while under general anesthesia (bladder hydrodistention) Done

    • Bladder training (using relaxation techniques to train the bladder to go only at specific times) Done

    • Medicines placed directly into the bladder, including dimethyl sulfoxide (DMS), heparin, Clorpactin, lidocaine, doxorubicin, or bacillus Calmette-Guerin (BCG) vaccine Done and Very painful

    • Physical therapy and biofeedback (may help relieve pelvic floor muscle spasms) tried, didnt help

    • Surgery, ranging from cystoscopic manipulation to bladder removal (cystectomy) next to do

    Dietary changes

    Some patients find that changes in their diet can help control symptoms. The idea is to avoid foods and beverages that can cause bladder irritation.

    Below are some of the foods that the Interstitial Cystitis Association says may cause bladder irritation.- this is the hard part because of all the triggers, I keep telling Andrew i am living on toast.

    • Aged cheeses

    • Caffeine- big trigger

    • Artificial sweeteners

    • Chocolate

    • Citrus juices

    • Coffee

    • Cranberry juice (Note: Although cranberry juice is often recommended for urinary tract infections, it can make IC symptoms worse.)

    • Fava and lima beans

    • Meats that are cured, processed, smoked, canned, aged, or that contain nitrites

    • Most fruits except blueberries, honeydew melon, and pears

    • Nuts except almonds, cashews, and pine nuts

    • Onions

    • Rye bread

    • Seasonings that contain MSG

    • Sour cream- big trigger

    • Sourdough bread

    • Soy

    • Tea

    • Tofu

    • Tomatoes- Big Trigger

    • Yogurt

    Experts suggest that you do not stop eating all of these foods at one time. Instead, try eliminating one at a time to see if that helps relieve your symptoms.

     
     
    I also found
    Cholrine is a big trigger for me- if i swim im in pain for several days
    Stress- off course i am not stressed, never :p
     
    When i have a flare up- i cannot get comfortable so i cant sleep, eat or do anything but cry in pain at times.
     
    Right now i take 12 pills per day in hopes of hiding the pain, sad thing is my body will get adjested to these pills and we will be back to square one. I hope you never have to experience this pain
     
    Do i question why i have this, off course i have, but God knows best!
     
    For more Info here are some links