November 3, 2012

  • Peace, lesson 1

     

     
     
    Starting this month, each week i am going to pick a topic that is close to my heart and write about it..
    after the death of my best friends Daddy, i knew i would talk about peace.
     
    {A definition} -
     Peace is a state of harmony characterized by the lack of violent conflict and the freedom from fear of violence. Commonly understood as the absence of hostility, peace also suggests the existence of healthy or newly healed interpersonal orinternational relationships, prosperity in matters of social or economic welfare, the establishment of equality, and a working political order that serves the true interests of all. In international relations, peacetime is not only the absence of war or violent conflict, but also the presence of positive and respectful cultural and economic relationships. (wikipedia)
     
    God wants us to truly live in Peace, he don’t want us to be scared or worried or living in fear ever.
    When we lay down to sleep at night- he gives us a peace

     

    I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. 
    Psalms 4:8 (NIV bible)
    He gives us a peace that no one else can give
    off course we can try other things for peace, but there is no peace like the Peace of God- he covers us with it, he wants us to need his peace, he wants us to feel at peace, he don’t want his children fearful.

    I used to struggle with fear – fear of losing people i love, fear of death, fear of everything. I lived in fear thru out my child hood,my mom would have me sleep with a bible under my pillow because i had fearful nightmares so bad, when i became a momma it got worst because now i had this little one to take care of as well, it was rough for me when i first became a mom, i didn’t want her in the nursery by her self, so most nights she slept with me, yes i know, not good…
    but because of fear that grabbed me i couldn’t have a rested night if she wasn’t in the bed with me, then as she got older off course she would sleep in her bed, i would still get up at night to check on her and to make sure she was OK, now each day when she leaves for school- i feel fear trying to grab me and i have to say a prayer for the Peace of God to cover me.
    Mark Condon wrote an amazing song and my best friend has been singing it off and on since the accidental death of her daddy- listen to this song, i think it will minister to you.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmWTPIInuIE&feature=share

     

     
    TO be Continued :)  

October 30, 2012

October 24, 2012

  • forgive my absence

    im recovering once again 
    got taken to er on Monday night with what nurse and drs thought was ecoli poisoning

    come to find out it was just a severe case of stomach flu. 

    I need to rest for now

    Some pic of presents to make ya smile 

    Day 7 to bring color into my life 

    Day 8- to relax and unwind- head massager

     

     

    Day 9- to find joy in every day

     

    Day 10 

     

    Day 11 i think she is trying to make me sweet 

    Day 12- to clean up the messies that life brings

     

     

    Day 13 to celebrate my greatest blessings 

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

October 17, 2012

  • i really hate when i am trying to get the words to flow correctly to get across what im trying to say 
    I have a heavy heart tonight
    My Dear Cousin Marcie who is only 25 is suffering with a cancer, it is growing very rapidly- she has started Chemo but she is in a lot of pain- my heart goes out to her, my heart breaks for her, i remember growing up with her- she was also born with spinal bifida- i always stop and ask why her, didn’t she have enough growing up- she could never run and play like all of us did, she was confined to leg braces, crutches and a wheel chair- she has had so many surgeries thru out her short life… 
    It is a good thing we cant just call to Heaven on a telephone because people would have the line worn out just by asking questions. My heart breaks for her mother and father- her older sister also has MS- she has a bad case of it.
    The Whole family is upset as they would be. Not sure where to turn or what to do, so a close friend and i are having a benefit concert/silent auction to raise money to help them get her to apts etc, the closest hospital is 2 hours away and she goes once a week.  We are hosting it on Nov 24, if any of you feel inclined to give a donation, email me please: terrigrothe@gmail.com or comment here

October 16, 2012

October 14, 2012

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    This has been an awesome weekend.
    Friday- I turned 30- First phone call came at 7:15 am- i wanted to slap her but seeing as she is my mother, i figured id suck it up and talk to her, after we got done talking, i got Brooke up for school, i was off today so we slept an extra hour when im off.
    Got her off to school and i went back to bed, because i could ;p I slept off and on til 11:30- yes i am a person who prefers day time sleep to night time sleep.
    Once up i checked some blogs out, checked facebook, email and twitter, decided i wanted chocolate for breakfast and because it was my birthday, i didnt feel guilty at all, husband gave me my favorite ones, these chocolates are amazing.

    I decided i would do some laundry because birthday or not, laundry needed to be done. Brooke needed me to come to school and bring her saxophone home wor her, bc she finds it very heavy and so do i.
    I took a shower when we got home to get ready for birthday dinner, we went to Hilltop bar and beverage, i wasnt impressed with my food, but it was nice to be surrounded by people who are important to me, we had 14 people show, they got me balloons and cake for dessert after dinner, then we did presents and i am so spoiled, here are some

    Cake off course

     

     

    some presents…candle, tupperware( personal rice maker, i love it, choc, friends thing, skirt

     

     

    Mel( my adopted sister) , Tim and Olivia were also there for dinner, she gave me a huge box full of presents, there were 30 items in there, each individually wrapped and numbered, she wants me to open one a day for next 30 days. The one i could open today was a notebook- so i can record my next 30 days.

    (the 30 presents)

     

    I had a great birthday with my friends and family.

    The first present today was a notebook to document the next 30 days with :

    Here it is

     

     

    I cannot wait to open all 30 days :) Each day i will share a photo of that day’s gift

    Brooke has been asking to take the guest room for her room, so we did it- i dunno why she wanted to switch but she did like her room.

    Hung out with my amazing husband after that was all done, he is such an amazing husband. I am blessed.

     

    Saturday: as usual we ran errands… we are such procrastinators- we spend most of the day sitting around, hanging out and doing nothing- so just before 3 we went to super store for groceries, also ate lunch there because we did’nt have any before going- Never Go Shopping On An Empty Belly:p

    We then went to Costco( like Sam’s club), bought our first ever membership for Costco, i am was a big anti costco shopper, now i am all about it, i also went with 10 days meal planned, first time to ever do this and i am hoping it works well.

    Brooke has a project at school- “Rock Band” so she needed some supplies for that, so we went to Dollarama ( like dollar tree, except Dollar Tree is much better), came home, our friend Faith came over for dinner and i made nachos, she also gave me a sweet Birthday card, such a sweet girl. I am so blessed to be her friend.

    Made brownies, did laundry and met my new friend Michelle - she also re-decorated my blog after i had it all messed up, thanks so much Michelle for coming to my rescue.  She is new to blogging as well, so nice of her to help me out.  Blogging has allowed me to meet so many awesome people. Go by her blog and say hi to her.

     

    Day 2 present was:

     

     

    Sunday

     

    As usual we had sunday school- i love our church more and more every day. Everyone is so nice and friendly there and our pastor is an amazing speaker. 2 of the kids from bible school came for lunch and to do laundry, they are sweet kids, I took my sunday afternoon nap and oh did it ever feel good. My hair did exactly what i wanted it to do today, i love good hair days.

    Here is Brooke and i today :

     

    Sunday PM- back to church- yeah we go to church 2 x on Sundays, not a lot of people do anymore and they dont do it back home anymore, but i love it, so refreshing to go 2x on sundays.

    After Service we ended up going to Wendy’s- its what people do here, they go out to eat on sunday nights, i didnt eat anything but had a cold diet coke( not as good as pepsi but ok )

    Now i am home with lunches packed, clothes picked out, laundry going and ready to face another week.

     

    Today’s gift was:

    When they come to visit im gonna get Olivia to help me get her momma.

     

    Have a great week

     

     

October 12, 2012

  •  
    Well I officially feel old,
    Happy 30th to me….
     


    When I turned 20- I didn’t feel nervous at all- I was already a wife and momma.
    When I turned 25- I was beginning to feel the anxiety
     
    Now today I turn 30

    I’m seriously grateful to God first and foremost because he has let me live these 30 yrs.
    As a teenager thinking about 30 felt so old… But here I am

    In celebration of me being 30- I am gonna list things about me
     
    1. I love to entertain
    2. I am a notepad hoarder! I have a drawer that’s pretty big almost full and yet I buy more.
    3. I’d like to be a professional traveler
    4. I only had one boyfriend and I married him
    5. I need to loose weight
    6. I’d rather work full time over part time
    7. I’d rather fall and winter all year long
    8. Sleeps with fan blowing on me all the time- year round.
    9. I struggle with self esteem
    10. School was difficult for me
    11. I play(ed) clarinet
    12. I’m a clean freak
    13.  I don’t have my drivers license
    14. I find it hard to make new friends
    15. Have never ever cut my hair
    16. I like to try new recipes
    17. Used to have panic attacks now I fight them :p
    18. I’m addicted to my cell
    19. I like to clean and drive myself crazy at times if something is messed (OCD perhaps)
    20. I’ve yet to figure out what to do with life.
    21. I like twitter more then fb
    22. I have a low tolerance for pain
    23. Collect pens
    24. My keychain is heavy from so many key chains from places I’ve been
    25. Don’t wear make up
    26. I blog for my hobby
    27. Love scrapbooking
    28. I prefer pepsi over coke
    29. Love road trips
    30. I feel old now that I’m 30
    30 is the new 20 or so im told.
    heres hoping for the best year yet.
     
     

October 10, 2012

  • Please forgive me if im not around to blog for a while…

    i turn 30 on friday 

    and i am very depressed

    not over my birthday

    but over a lot of things

    maybe ill do a protected post about it.

     

    until i feel like writing

    i love you all 

October 8, 2012

  • I hate to admit this but….
    I am HOMESICK
    It hit me hard today
    I have never been away from home for a Thanksgiving, yet today we didnt get my mom’s turkey dinner, we , had my aunts, it was good and almost like mom’s.
    We have been left home (Newfoundland) 3 months on the 21st
    it seems like forever ago, we now live in Fredericton, NB
    We do plan to go home for Christmas but not until Dec 20th- it seems to far away yet
    Life here is so good
    we are happier then we ever have been back home
    but the way i miss my family today, really sucks.
    Brooke and her best friend talked tonight, they miss each other
    Brooke cried as well, she said she dont want to ever go back to NL but she misses her friends
    Life without family is hard, my aunt is only 1 1/2 hrs away but it isnt my mom
    they look alike, cook alike, but are very different.
    What have you done to relieve home sickness if you ever had it

October 7, 2012

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    Happy Thanksgiving ( here in Canada anyway)

    I feel like my thankful list is so big this year- some are below

    1) God ad his love

    2) my health

    3) my strength

    4) my husband

    5) our baby girl

    6) new life we have here since we moved

    7) church

    8) our pastor

    9) my job

    10) family

    11) new and old friends

     

    I could go on, but ill stop there.  love you all.